the past 3 months of my life.

have been a whirlwind of emotions and experiences that I can't even begin to describe. Besides the complete disaster with my moving company, my mom breaking her shoulder when she cae to visit me and my upcoming layoff- I've had an amazing time and learned so much about nursing and myself that I wouldn't trade for the world.

Last Thursday I finished my 8 week preceptorship. I honestly feel like a completely different person. More confident and sure of myself than I've felt in a long time. Besides the "skill" aspect of it all, (15ish IV starts most of them on 3 # or less babies, countless deliveries, lab draws, working with patients who basically crash when I take them off CPAP for cares and assessments, working with kids with trachs,lines and ostomys, and even being the code recorder for almost 3 hours on my 1st code EVER.) I feel like I've grown mentally and pushed myself and gone waaaaaay outside my comfort zone-more than I ever thought possible. I've had amazing feedback from my 3 wonderful preceptors- this unit honestly has THE best nurses I have ever ever ever worked with in my entire nursing school career. I feel honored to work on a unit like this.........

...for however long this may be. Friday I recieved my official layoff/reassignment notice in the mail. By June 26th I'll know for sure whether or not I have a job and if I do what unit I've been reassigned to. This honestly depresses me. If I'm reassigned to a unit I don't want to be on there is a great possiblity that I may voluntarily move home. Without this job there is really no reason I would want to be in Spokane. The reassignment if given will be temporary and after the census picks up in the NICU I'd be transferred back. There is a really good possibility that my reassignment will be in L&D, thats my only positive outlook on this whole ordeal.

Anyways, I miss you all so so soooooo much and I promise to keep you updated ;)